I have to make a correction to my previous post.  I did in fact get a single phone call from my new friend and current co-worker Leslie.  She knew I had been sick and called to see how I was so that was nice.

Last night the drama in life continued.  As I was preparing to go to bed I noticed the lights had dimmed.  I checked the bathroom lights and they too were very dim.  I checked the outlet in my room the lights went from light to dim a few times and then went out completely. So grabbed a flashlight and looked around the room, then noticed smoke coming from an outlet in my room.  It was close to midnight but I was scared so I called the fire dept and they came.  Said there was a problem with the GFI outlet outside the trailer where I plug in my water pipe heat tape.  They advised me to unplug the heat tape but that would only cause my water to freeze, my pipes to burst and so on. So I have spent today trying to call someone to come check it out.  It's Martin Luther King Jr. day and alas I can reach no one.  Don't get me wrong Martin Luther King was a great man and I hate to think his death might have been in vain because we are no closer to peace. But I digress, life sucks I can never know peace in my own life it's constant stress and worry and I'm so tired of it.  Oh and my stupid microwave won't work which is primarily how I eat these days.  I'm so angry and as usual I stuff the anger and try to just focus on getting through the day.  It's freezing and it's hard to complain as up until Christmas it was unseasonably warm but I hate being cold and the constant struggle to stay warm.  I have to be out in it for extended lengths of time so makes it all the more distasteful to me.

So anyway dealing with severe cold and wind, one headache after another and no one here to vent to, to talk to, to help me figure things out.  Oh what it would be like to have someone to share the daily bullshit with.  I long for that voice of reason, that encouragement that everything seems hopeless now but it will be alright.

In light of the day I found this quote which seems appropriate;

If you can't fly then run,if you can't run then walk, if you can't walk then crawl, but whatever you do you have to keep moving forward

                                      Martin Luther King Jr.