Thursday Dec 29th

I was thinking about this last night when I couldn't sleep yet again.  But maybe God does hear me, maybe too well.  I mean just a couple weeks ago I was at work and wishing for the millionth time that I could get off third shift because even after like two years I still could not adjust to it and was getting by on an average of four hours of sleep sometimes less.  And there was also the impending arrival of my granddaughter and my desire to be available to help my daughter out once she is born.  And to be honest I was very, very unhappy working there the last few years so who knows maybe it was destiny.  I mean I wasn't  the first to be let go and certainly won't be the last.  Three times in the last few years I saw them let people go who'd been with the company for some thirty years or so, it's a corporation they don't care about people they only care about numbers.  They eliminated my job but I'm still here.   So maybe I'm meant to move onto to something better and I have to keep that frame of mind.   It's hard for I ever the pessimist but I shall try