February 14 2012

Valentine's Day, one of the holidays I've come to hate and wish I didn't.  Sam used to do his best to make it special and he wasn't the kind to forget the same went for my birthday. I wish so many times that he was here not just for me but for his children but it's one of those things about my life I have no control over.   I do hope those I love are made to feel special and appreciated today because that's what it's all about.

Feb 10th

Somehow developed a stomach bug after spending the day with my daughter and granddaughter.  Keep hoping the baby doesn't get it or my mom because it was miserable.   I still feel kind of off but the stomach cramps were the worst part of it and they seem to have stopped so that's a relief.  Been feeling down today letting myself worry about the things I can't control so may just go watch some videos on Youtube that I know will make me laugh.

Feb 6th

Today was my daughter's due date to have her baby!  But my beautiful grand daughter is almost two weeks old already.  That's right Mariella Sky arrived on January 26th just shy of midnight!  I don't think she was early or anything like that as she weighed a healthy 7.5.  I think they may just have been off on my daughter's due date and we already went for her first Drs appt and she is doing great.  I love watching Amanda with her I can tell she is head over heels over her baby and I know this because Amanda has fantasized about being a mommy since she was a little girl.   And Ella like her mommy is a good baby who seldom cries and just sleeps and eats or looks around at her new world.  She has a smidgeon of dark hair covering her tiny head and what looks promising as blue eyes but too soon to tell.  I was there when she was born supporting my daughter and I held her when she was minutes old.   I can't wait to share every little bit of her new life now.  My only regret is that Sam is not here to see this little miracle and to be called Grampy Stone.  : (